In the Afterlife, My Father Is Finally Content
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I can just make him out, standing in one of his beloved fields, probably McIntosh’s Park. The sun is shining and clouds are drifting overhead, casting their shadows on the fields of barley on the other side of the glen. My father is moving a flock of sheep from one field to another. In the afterlife, his dog is perfectly trained and obeys his commands, anticipating each new action with keen intelligence. The ewes flow effortlessly through the gate, just like in the sheepdog trials on TV. It never went so smoothly in real life. My father cups his hand around his pipe and holds his Zippo to the wooden bowl. There’s no wind, so it lights easily at the first attempt. I see him smile as he watches something in the distance. Maybe he’s spotted a buzzard, or he’s listening to the call of a curlew. Or perhaps he’s just content because for once he’s finished his work early and can head back to the farmhouse, sit in his shabby leather armchair next to the Rayburn and listen to Radio 4, possibly take a nap. I move closer, call out “Dad.” There are so many things I want to ask him. How did he decide when he was finished for the day? Did he feel satisfied in the evenings, or did he fret about the next day’s tasks? But he just stares into the distance. He takes a final puff on his pipe, whistles for the dog, and starts walking in the direction of home. There’s no way to get through to him. No way at all.
 
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Blood Lines

My father and I sat in the tattoo studio flipping through the folders. There was a strong smell of disinfectant and a faint aroma of ink. Dad kept looking up and frowning at the tattoo artists with their multiple piercings. It had taken a lot of work, but I’d managed to persuade him to get matching tattoos. I told him it would bring us closer together. I told him Mum would have wanted it. “See anything you like?” I asked, pointing at the images in their clear sleeves. “I was hoping I might find something with personal significance,” he said. “Like the Massey Ferguson I had when I first took over the farm, or the Aberdeen Angus bull my father sold to the Argentine.” I flicked through another couple of pages. “How about this one?” I said, pointing at an illustration of the Pictish symbol that was carved into the standing stone in my parents’ village. “Or this?” The design showed a map of Scotland with a red dot marking the location of the farm where my father grew up. Dad shook his head and returned his attention to the newspaper crossword. Leafing through the designs, searching for something that held significance for both of us, I thought of the flap of inked skin I’d once seen in a formaldehyde jar in Berlin’s Charité museum. I wondered if, after my father’s eventual death, the doctor would ask if I wanted to hold on to the tattoo as a keepsake. I recalled how my father would skin a dead newborn lamb and tie the fleece around an orphan, so the familiar smell would fool the mother ewe into accepting the stray. As a child, I too sometimes thought I must be adopted.
 
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Nothing Reminds Me of Home

like the sickly smell of an animal corpse. I grew up surrounded by dead lambs, eye sockets hollowed out by crows. When I saw my father take his rifle from the cupboard under the stairs, where we kept tinned food and candles for blackouts, I knew a beast was so ill there was no point calling the vet. My father would be sombre when he returned. He’d eat his supper in silence, write in his farm diary instead of listening to the radio. Our livelihood depended on death, yet he didn’t like killing animals. When, years later, he was bed-ridden and dying, I couldn’t help thinking: if you were a cow, you’d have shot yourself by now.
 
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Reddit Nothing Brings Me Joy

It’s impossible to hit middle age and not feel relief. Finding ourselves somewhere solid. Wasn’t that the point? You might ask whatever happened to our shattered dreams, but some stories are meant to be unfinished: the rental car, the gas station restroom. It makes for good material. At the end of the day, I know my place. Turns out the spheres were playing music all along. We just weren’t listening. 
 
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In Autumn, I Can Already Smell the Snow

I investigate the limits of the city, seek out painted facades. They say the winters here are moderate, but I fear an early frost. I miss pleasant sounds. I crave sandstone and clear skies. I come to the lake and ask for forgiveness. I practise nocturnes on the piano. I watch for urban wildlife. I write postcards to friends, but fail to post them. The buses here never arrive, and the old men wear too much make-up. My dreams are full of car accidents and births. I have seldom seen so many ruins, and I am tired of orchards. I watch through uncurtained windows as my neighbours play video games. I worry about the locked compartments in the public library. I pray to a different saint each day. 
 
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Predators and Prey

We were all excited about going to see the swans at the Centre. None of us had ever seen a real one before. They’d advertised it for weeks in advance on the screens. My dad warned us not to get too close. “They’ll break your arm with a swipe of their wing.” Mum said in the old days all the swans belonged to the monarch. We asked her what a monarch was and she started talking about something called a queen, but we were none the wiser. When we got there and saw the three birds swimming around the artificial pool in the Centre’s main plaza, a chill ran through me. It was eerie to see a real animal, even though I knew it was all bioengineering. There was a smell I’d never experienced before, like rotting food. The swans drifted around the surface of the water like white ghosts. They looked like they knew where they were going, but how could they? When I held my appliance in front of one to make a recording, the bird hissed at me, as if it could tell what I was thinking. I’d read about animals, of course, and even seen old videos of them, but I never imagined they would be conscious. That they might want something.
 
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Creative Destruction

At the office, my team was forced to take part in a workshop where we had to build Lego creations representing the biggest challenges we faced. Emma made a model of our boss blocking her ideas. Steve’s structure illustrated the challenges of combining office work with child care. The works were a bit on the nose, what with the little desks and Lego people raising their arms and everything. I wasn’t sure how to depict a creeping sense of existential angst, so I built a representation of my future poetry collection instead. Everybody crowded around to get a better look. “What on earth is that?” asked Fiona. “It’s a representation of my future poetry collection,” I said. “I didn’t know you wrote poetry,” she said. “I don’t,” I said quickly, realising I shouldn’t have admitted my literary ambitions at work. “It’s so … beautiful,” someone said. “So fragile, and yet strong,” another person added. “What do you think, Glen?” the workshop facilitator asked. Glen was staring at my model. Instead of answering, he broke off the top of my structure with a doughy hand. “Stop,” I said, lunging towards him. Several pairs of hands held me back. I strained at their grip but was unable to prevent Glen from tearing apart my model piece by piece. As I watched, I realised my co-worker was the same Glen who’d smashed my beloved Lego castle when he came for a playdate at the age of six. Robert, the farm worker from New Zealand who lived with us for a summer, had built the castle with me. It was so intricate, packed with turrets, balconies and secret passageways.
 
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Psychopomps

And here we are again, making small talk about God. You tell me private equity is discovering the afterlife. You’re concerned about a lack of psychopomps. I extract an egg sandwich from the tray, you accept a top-up. You point at my father’s Rotary. Don’t see many young people wearing watches these days. I’m not young, but I nod. He knew the old prayers by heart. My daughter bounds over, hugging her soft toy like a floatation device. Foxy needs to go to the loo. I follow as she skips along the corridor. My heavy brogues sink into the mossy carpet. You are new now, blessed by God.
 
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Blood Alcohol

And here you are again, on the edge of the woods at dusk. These fields had names once. A fox skulks in the undergrowth. The petrol station lights were the last thing he saw. Your coffee is cold now. Recorded chatter the only kind you can stand. Amidst the hogweed, the sodden remains of a stuffed bear. Parallel ogees smear the road. Plastic wrap tourniquets your arm; the addition of a date. He’s riding his bike in the evening sun, endless circles around the barn. He is four years old. He will always be four years old. 

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Daniel Addercouth grew up on a remote farm in the north of Scotland but now lives in Germany. His work has appeared in The Ekphrastic Review, The London Magazine and Vestal Review, among other places.

​Mount St Helens 1976
 
I was sixteen years old, driving to California with a boy I’d marry when I turned eighteen. Born on the prairie, most comfortable in college towns—Bozeman, Missoula—I disliked cities, but the car’s windshield framed an urban view that called me like a siren. Was it the bridges soaring over the river’s wide division? The curling ferns on hillsides cascading with greenery? The snowy peaks of Mount St. Helens and Mt. Hood presiding over the skyline? I barely said it out loud, the mildest expression of a conviction that only grew stronger as we passed through Portland on our way to parts south. “I hate cities, but if I had to live in one, I think I could live here.” He smiled and said nothing. I knew he loved Montana. That’s where we would move after I graduated high school. That’s where he thought we would live forever. 
 
mountains capped with snow
two extinct volcanic peaks
only one will blow 

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The Astral Plain 1978
 
I tried so hard to believe. I wanted to read palms and lay out tarot cards. I wanted to experience ESP and levitation. And more than anything else, I want to travel the astral plain. Every night before I went to sleep, I tried to cast my—soul?—or whatever it is you’re supposed to send out via astral projection. Every morning, I would wake up and record what I could remember of my dreams, hoping to find evidence that I’d actually done it. My goal was to send my disembodied self out on the astral plain to find intelligent people, funny people, maybe even a few famous people—the people I was having trouble finding in Missoula, Montana, as the 18 year-old wife of an auto mechanic. 
 
curled cats sleeping near
mountain night, chilly air
sleep allows escape
 
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Laundry Day 1979
 
When we lived in Missoula, there was no laundry room at our apartment. I owned only one pair of jeans, so going to the laundromat was his job. He saved up loose change in a basket, and off he went on Saturday mornings while I lounged around the house in sleep clothes. He did the laundry well, never ruining a single garment of mine. He even seemed to enjoy it. I went with him once. I didn’t understand the appeal of all those humming, agitating, spinning, tumbling washers and dryers. But he loved motors, engines, anything that ran. Even me, after I ran.
 
battered brown basket
three tank tops, one pair of jeans
it’s clothesline weather

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Escape 1980
 
I remember the edges, ends and borders. Railings giving way to terror. Roadmaps you read and refolded, roads you followed. Colt 40 ouncers. Leaning into the train as it passed, screaming. The air pressure gauge for tires you carried in your front pocket. The grease under your fingernails that you cleaned every night with the pocketknife my parents gave you for your 18th birthday. Always being a passenger, in this car, in that car, up mountain trails and down. Ghost towns of no more than piles of reddish, collapsed lumber. Every national park. Every roadside marker. Your cigarette breath, the precise way you cleaned your glasses. Your mute love for me, as crushing as if it had been dropped on you from a great height. All those crumbling apartments, leaking heat and anger. Ants. Running out of fuel oil. Top Ramen. Concerned teachers. Calling my parents from phone booths and crying, wanting to come home. One pair of shoes in three years. A cat with leukemia. No tv. The night your mother called to tell you about your dad, the way you stood in that tiny kitchen and curved your body around the conversation, shrugging away my hand when I tried to touch you. The university chapel full of flowers and Bartok at his memorial service. Your mother in navy blue. My black eye. The moan of the cello. I left the week after his funeral. You forgave me. 
 
Drink the cheap green beer 
Gather boxes secretly
Load the van and drive 
 
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Glioblastoma Multiforme Return
 
In this dream, we were still pretending to be together, as we did that last bit of time with your parents before your father died. A painful but necessary façade, hiding my imminent flight for your mother’s sake. In life, it was less than a year. In the dream, we’d somehow done it for forty years. Your mother was ignorant and inside with your not-dead father, who was not shaking, not gasping out his last breaths in a convalescent center. No tumor had made a meal of his brilliant mind. 
 
A dream or nightmare 
I’ve had both, my own mother 
alive dead at the same time
 
We hardly knew each other, two strangers in a parked car, exhaled breath floating like smoke in the cold. Putting on our false marriage, wearing it as a mask. Your three brothers entered the house before us, rough hands stuffed deeply in the pockets of their Levi’s, hiking boots crunching through the Montana midwinter snow.  You joined them. As the four of you walked before me, I thought how you all formed a perfect scale on the spectrum, from barely affected to functionally autistic. 
 
All your mother’s sons 
athletic, nodding heads 
coarse and curling hair 
 
We trooped into a home I didn’t know, displacing the silence and that strange smell of a cold and empty house. Your once-disapproving mother welcomed me, finally, the child-bride stranger, a too-tall rebuke of all she was. I congratulated your not-dead father on beating his unbeatable cancer, on his unexpected and extended life, on drawing breath even though he was dead, even though it had trapped me with you. I’d promised to stay until he died—but he hadn’t. So I’d never left you. 
 
My own life was gone
never lived, never known 
erased by a dream.
 
I felt my way along in this different reality, like a blind woman with hands on walls, finding a safe place to stand. Why was I summoned back to this family of strangers who thought they knew me? None of you had children. Your mother asked me if we were we going to try, finally. I couldn’t bear to tell her that the ruse of our marriage had stretched long past my menopause. 
 
Oh yes, I said. We will. 
Good, she said. I have always 
wanted grandchildren.
 
I excused myself to take a walk, and that’s what I did. I walked until I found a long concrete path that cut through Bozeman, straight to Four Corners. I knew that beside me ran a parallel path, also concrete, hidden behind a fence. I knew it had to be there. It wasn’t far.
 
It ran like a track, 
knifing through that empty town, 
and out of it.
 
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Karen G. Berry lives and works in Portland, Oregon. She is interested in micro-societies, the strange and secret lives of children, and the heroic nature of everyday living. Karen's work has been nominated for the Pushcart Prize, and published by Persimmon Tree, Open Secrets, Inknest, The Offing, Pasager, HerStry, Flash Fiction, Thin Skin, Rust & Moth, The Gilded Weathervane, The Ekphrastic Review, and many other journals and anthologies, online and in print. You can learn more about Karen at her blog, I am Not a Pie. ​

​Matter
 
I was clattering around the kitchen this morning, and a pronouncement fell from the radio above the sink: “So, we don’t have much agency over the thermal death of the universe.” Something in the speaker’s weary voice compelled me to copy the phrase on the back of my grocery list, below mirror images of “peanut butter,” “feta,” “celery,” and “Chloe’s cold cuts” bleeding through in black Sharpie ink. It was just after New Year’s, raw and overcast outside for sure, but not exactly a harbinger of impending thermal death. The radio droned on about the Higgs boson, that “God-particle” responsible for the creation of discrete matter in those first Big Bang micro-moments, all the stuff that could coalesce into nebulae and tectonic plates and the flesh on my bones and a fibrous celery rib. Geez, NPR expects a lot of heavy lifting before first cup of coffee! Whatever pull I might exert upon the universe’s longevity, I don’t quite fathom, but I do love the word “agency,” such an exhilaration of power and autonomy.  Although these days I associate it most with women and their bodies, hard-won rights disintegrating into the current political maelstrom, much like the apparent fade of energy across the firmament. Everything gets flipped. If Leonardo Da Vinci wrote down his groceries, I could read them perfectly on the other side. What tissues of time and matter separate us from comprehending our purpose? What if I forgot to add “dish soap” to the list? 
 
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Reliquary for a Dog
 
Roscoe was no saint. Shitter of carpets and shredder of backpacks left unattended on the floor. He once courted death by nipping at the heels of a State Police horse, a patient behemoth who could’ve decapitated his little Jack Russell head and golfed it halfway across the park with one hindquarter clip. But here’s the thing, his actual death was miraculous. I woke to find him half-paralyzed on the one morning of the year my grown kids and my ex were in all town for Christmas, and my step-family was away. We convened in my kitchen, and once he realized his original rescue family had all come together one last time, he peacefully checked out. How that rascal was able to time it like that, I’ll never know. His ashes are bagged in a baby shoebox on my bookshelf. I’ve thought of sprinkling him in that stand of pines on the coast of Maine where he once staggered out dragging a desiccated deer leg longer than he was. O how he radiated his inner wolf that day! Should’ve kept that leg, cremated it along with him as an accompaniment to whatever further scavenging grounds he might ascend to. I don’t believe in Doggie Purgatory, no seven-story obstacle course to climb in refinement of the canine soul. Even if there was, he’d probably dig his way out under the perimeter fence, looking for something nasty to roll around in and eat. 
 
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Blame
 
The first pedestrian fatalities caused by automobiles were called “car murders.” Auto companies hated the term, and eventually they devised the misdemeanor “jaywalking,” to shift blame onto the walking public. How to arbitrate the interactions between ambulating flesh and fast-moving chunks of steel and glass? No one wants to accrue blame for a child’s brains dashed out against the curb. My brother died in his bedroom, and I was relieved to hear he was at home; that he hadn’t been ejected, drunk, through the windshield of his Porsche, and that he hadn’t taken anyone with him. This is what my gratitudes consist of nowadays. And really, blame is not a sticky-trap dragging one down into a morass of remorse, not unless it’s accompanied by a hefty jail sentence, and even then, you can play the martyr card, raise defense funds from your base, or lean into that great American tradition where everyone loves a good comeback story. My brother did several months in county lockup, and when he got out, he built three good years of sobriety. I am most grateful for that time with him. Set your mirrors with care, wear a seat belt, use your blinkers, use a designated driver. What do jays have to do with traffic flow, anyway? When I approach my polling station to vote, I always look all ways before I cross.    
 
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This poem was previously published in Atticus Review.
 
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Cause
 
I’m shivering under the filling station awning as a light wintry mix falls, watching gallons and dollars swell on the register of Pump #5, when a prompt appears on the screen: “Would you like to make a donation to St. Jude,” not specifying if the funds would go towards research for cancer-riddled kids, just Saint Jude, that unremarkable apostle pushed to the periphery in most Last Supper tableaus, the chump who got tagged as Patron Saint of Lost Causes, which doesn’t bode well for the cancer kids, and I start thinking, all right Pump, what is your lost cause; are we talking about our current hydrocarbon-burning transportation system, or more broadly, is the Grand Experiment of Humanity coming to a close and this is the only sign I’ll get that the Rapture is at hand, and if I don’t drop a healthy tithe into this gas pump card reader right now, I’m not going to make it skyward; instead I’ll get hung up on the underside of this filling island awning, my ankles tangled in a hose spewing gouts of economy grade octane all over, the fire-retardant foam nozzles kicking in too late to keep my Subaru from going up in an apocalyptic fireball; oh jeez Pump, give me a just a sec, but nothing much happens, just a slight shift in the wind pushing sleet down my neck, and I hop back in the car, buckle up, and pull out onto the highway toward home and my beloved.
 
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This poem was previously published in Hole in the Head Review. 
 
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Maine Aubade
 
Dawn unfolds, with rose-capped breakers murmuring the shoreline, and I am haunted out of sleep by a specter wafting in from across the ocean, tumbling into my newsfeeds and dreams, images of shredded, amputated arms and legs, many of them tiny; huge horrific piles of them accumulating, crusted in pus and dust, and as the sun shatters the horizon onto this outpost edge of America, the remaining trunk of my empathy squirms a question: does a phantom limb feel the agony of its lingering phantom pain in proportion to the butchery inflicted on the severed appendage?  
 
slack tide
crab carcass
drifting 
 
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Pinsky

I was waiting for a train in Penn Station, maintaining my little island of space within the flow of humans on the move, and I looked up from my book to see, right in front of me, the unmistakable profile of Robert Pinsky, staring up at the trackboard, trying to locate his train, and for a brief moment I had this urge to introduce myself, which flared and snapped shut like a Zippo lighter; I mean, what was I going to say?— “Gee, Mr. Pinsky, I’m not just a fellow traveler, I’m actually an emerging poet, and I love your work; in fact, I was thinking about the strings of inventory in “Shirt” just the other night, such an awesome poem!” – and he would have to shake himself free from the anxiety of missing his connection, tuck away his formidable mental to-do list, mumble some gracious pleasantries, maybe ask a question or two about my own influences and trajectory, all while keeping an ear out for the overhead PA track announcement, as commuters shouldered by us all around; all that work I did for him in my head before returning to my book, staring down at some random phrase until I sensed he had moved on into the cavernous bustling, just another guy trying to get to somewhere else. 
 
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This was previously published in Complete Sentence.  
 
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Post-Election Postcard: Montreal
 
By chance, we had planned a short getaway to Montreal for the weekend after the presidential election, and the lingering grief for the just-deceased Leonard Cohen was as unavoidable in the raw swirling November air as the post-election turmoil that followed us north across the border. The Canadian newspapers held a generous balance between elegies for Leonard, and tremulous projections for the impending Trump era and its sinister ripples the world over. We heard that the entryway to Leonard’s ancestral home in Westmount had been transformed into a shrine of treasured lyrics, but we didn’t visit. This morning, I walked the few blocks down from our hotel to the chapel of Notre Dame de Bon Secours, the sacred space where Leonard was reputed to draw inspiration for his first successful song, “Suzanne.” The Sunday streets were peaceful in the absence of weekday road repairs, the usual Old Port crowds were reduced to a few early wandering tourists like myself, and a scattering of well-bundled homeless folks circling while waiting for a food pantry to let them in. The chapel was open, and a sparsely attended Mass was underway. I slipped into a back pew and tried to mark my place in the liturgy with my minimal French. The famous ship models hanging from the chapel vault were pointing aimlessly every which way, as if they had been tossed in a recent storm. Brilliant diagonals of colour beamed down through the east transept windows. I offered a prayer of gratitude, and a plea for guidance in the coming turbulent times, then re-emerged into the ripped-up cobblestone streets and the cold cloudless morning light. 
 
Later in the day, sitting in a line of cars at the border, creeping through Customs to pass back into the States, we saw the Canadian flag, flying at half-mast. For a moment I lost it, and wept behind the wheel, as a tender bubble of hope welled up in the realization that we are still neighbours with a nation that can publicly mourn a singer and a poet. 
 
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Ars Protectica: A Monosyllabus

We will need lots of words, big words. Not big as in long, but big as in words that feel big, words that are clear, words like “strong” and “win” and “fight back” and “they will pay.” Don’t say “black” or “brown,” just say “them,” and we will know what we mean. Save the weak words for them, words like “fail” and “thug” and “sad.” Words that will keep them far from us. For they are not like us. No, not at all. Think of the words that will keep us safe from them: “lock ‘em up” and “lock and load” and “stand your ground.” Great words. And “safe,” such a fine word, too. One of the best. Now then, think of things we need to buy more of: bombs, jets, ships, tanks. We can buy more of them if we don’t pay a lot for things we don’t need so much, like health care and clean air and meals on wheels and the arts. These things won’t keep us safe, so why waste funds on them? Think of all the threats in the world. The world is not a safe place now, but we can make it safe, just for us, if we stick to my plan. Trust me.
 
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This poem was previously published in What Rough Beast.
 
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There is an “I” in “WHITE”

right at the centre, all sounds radiating outward from its core, the long vowel sound creating proud space for the architecture of the word. Tall and slender, lucid, perfect in its upright stance at the hub of all things. The word could not exist without the voweled sonic reach of the “I,” as the remaining letters on their own would just eke out a damp puff crossing the lips with a “whtt!,” barely audible. Notice the letters relegated to the periphery, the “W” and the “E,” which could spell out the collective “WE” if they were not separated. These letters are complex, with angles and branches facing out in many different directions. The components of the “WE” are barricaded from the “I” by the henchmen letters “H” and “T,” erect and vigilant, vertical strokes protecting the “I,” with horizontal spacers to keep the outside world at bay. There is potential here: the “H” introduces a turbulence, a sense of living breath to the word; it could be moving into the profound question, “Why?” But the “T” cuts off that possibility by dropping its consonant chop. It might just have concluded a “Whit,” an inconsequential trifle, were it not for the unappreciated labor of the trailing “E” straining to hoist the “I” skyward into all of its long-vowel glory. And the “I” just stands there, insulated from the tensions swirling all around it, blissful in its singularity. “I” does not feel alone, attended to by its acolytes, but I will never know the “WE” in all of their painful complexity, and they will never be able to reach through and disturb my safeguarded ego. 
 
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This poem was previously published in What Rough Beast.

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Bonerville
 
When I wake up in Bonerville, my watch announces it’s only three a.m., while my crotch insists I’m thirteen again, endowed with an organ that drives through my days by announcing its desires at the most inconvenient moments, say, right at the end of math class. And I’d have to crabwalk my way between classrooms with a textbook wedged across the tent of my jeans, knowing the whole world must know how incapable I am of owning my feelings, as if I could ever articulate what wells in my heart and elsewhere, intimacy being a world as alien as the scarred and seething surface of Venus. The penis wants, it wants, oh how it wants, and yet brooks no responsibility in mixed company. Freud is unhelpful. Playboy explains nothing. So, I am left to rotisserie through these sweaty sheets, a pouty engorged bewilderment. 
 
Now I’m deaccelerating down the onramp of my Medicare application when a routine blood test flags something tumorous permeating my prostate—erectile prospects pending—which might or might not be a big deal because who really cares about the antics of a graying cis-het retiree, and indeed it’s nobody’s business what goes down in our bedroom, only I will tell you this: we are generous and by times glorious and always grateful for good enough, good enough being the miracle that our hearts washed up on each other’s shores some fourteen years ago when we each thought we were submerged and sinking, and the world right now is metastatic with hate; there is so much burden to shoulder and we will try to heft our part, but we also have by times the blessed bedroom and spring is wheeling round again with its bone-warming swaths of sunbeam on the deck and rafts of daffodils and a beurre blanc lingering piquant on the tongue longer than we ever would have imagined possible.
 
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Robbie Gamble (he/him) is the author of the chapbook A Can of Pinto Beans (Lily Poetry Review Press, 2022). His poems and essays have appeared in Pithead Chapel, Post Road, Salamander, The Sun, and Tahoma Literary Review. He is the poetry editor for Solstice: A Magazine of Diverse Voices, and he divides his time between Boston and an apple orchard in Vermont.